wooo. finally can get to use comp. oh ya this will be the only personal. its you and me electronic pal. from now on u will be my only companion. lots of stuff happened. i feel like breaking down which i did the night before my trip to mountain expedition. weeks had passed and i feel like i'm much more worst than a criminal. they still have some freedom like doing wad they want after serving they daily dudy? but i think i do not have a choice. i cant watch tv, use comp or even sleep abit late. wtf man. committing suicide once crossed my mind. but i do not have the courage to do it. guess i'm a weak faggort. hai lets put all the bad stuff behind and let this new blog entry and lead to a place where i can really find happyness^^