i am speechless

this post is specially for my elder sister and brother of mine.

good points about my sister of mine.
-she sure is the best sister of mine who dotes me than anyone else in the family.
-she and her bf(now husband) is always my listening year and my maths teacher.
there is no doubt that i am grateful and respect her the most. she is the one whom i will cherish the most when i grow old. if there were to be anything happened i will be the first to help her even if i were to make some sacrifices.

bad points
i thought i finally had a room of mine that i can start planning what i want for and do some real tidying
BUT
-when i found out that 98% of her things are still in the room! the wardrobe, the cupboards, the study table of mine. MOST of the things are hers!
-the wardrobe: there is only one clothes hanger for me to hang all my clothes, the rest are her's the worst part is the door i could not even open the sliding door fully! if you were to force it through which is possible, you will be left with scratch marks which makes you regret.
-of all the cupboards i only put 3 things : a portable hard disk of mine, a belt and a "luffy pirate ship" the rest are hers. i was even left with a locked cupboard.
-maybe her in-law's home is too small to store her things or she has really no time to come and take her belongings away.
-the only things that i am grateful is the study table, at least i can do some serious studying even though her things are around.

i hope jie jie will find some time to keep my things.

next.. my brother

good points:
-he is a great parnter when playing games eg: WoW, dota, WC3, etc
-he treated me to a nice jap dinner recently, which i have no idea why
-he really took good care of me when i was very young. i really appreciate that.

bad points:
i have no idea what happened between us. in the past we used to be really close, regular hang out weekends for dinner, playing games we enjoyed: WC3 standard game & dota.

but, recently when he started playing WoW, back to church, brought back a gf. WOW we really distanced alot from each other.

take today's incident as an exmaple:
gf came to our house in the late morning, i think they did some *behind the close door* stuff. i could hear his gf making noice even though i put on those earphones which blocks surrounding noises. when we were going for lunch he really make those fucking cold and lame jokes. his jokes like to use man's private parts and his actions; its like is he trying to catch attention or what. he acted cute, giving those childish faces, purposely avoiding his gf when she said some things.

is he trying to tell me that having a gf is a blessing? trying to show off how close he and his gf are? if he is he has achieved it. his actions sometimes really disgust me _|_

during lunch he told his gf that he do not have to go for a soccer match due to enough ppl. but when i was doing some ironing of my clothes, he actually packed his soccer boots. at that moment i was "WOW i was like you do not have to go for soccer match right?" in my mind. leaving those chores to me when i have an exam tmr.


Woots that quite an amount i wrote. i have no idea why am i doing this, perhaps like what my poly friends said i'm pampered? i'm a whinner? or maybe my tolerance level is critically low. i'm utterly disappointed with myself. i think i'm some problematic kid. LMAO..

Come on someone give me a big slap to wake me up or give me lesson

got to hurry up mop the floor and cont with my studies..

Jia na!=]